Decisions

https://youtu.be/qSTF2HEMy1o

Wow. In an instant life is changing and FAST! Decisions to make and quickly. Trying to appease all and also keep the souls I care for safe, including mine.

It is a push pull from those in my life. I'm desperate to lean on strength and get that belief in me.

Dig deep little fairy. It is time to don your armor!

Blessings beloveds 

Safe

https://youtu.be/mJN7xKPE01w

This week has been a whirlwind filled with some very long days, some very hard decisions and some unpredictable blessings.

There is a plan in place and peace in an arena that has been is upheaval for a very long time.

There has been old wounds healed and sealed for good. And the universe blessed me with the right people at the right times for what I needed.

Joyful greetings at my arrival and wonderful times during my brief time "home." A night without nightmares that torment me, the bond only old friends can carry, and feeling safe. 

I got to explore one of my favorite towns on the way home, laugh more than I have in years and hit my favorite tea shop. (And it appears my gift was even accepted)  The exhaustion was well worth it all. 

I can't wait to feel this way always. Exhausted for all the right reasons. Joy, peace, healing, connection, and hope. All things I have been missing. 

Namaste beloveds 

Musing

https://youtu.be/zuZB2O6orV0

Two birthdays have come and gone with no celebration, and no word from you. That is ok! As time passes I have had the benefit of some clarity. 

Some people change; most people don't change at all. I I forge ahead in my journey the pain of growth is peppered with the possibility of joy ahead. 

Little things like peace. The lack of chaos or the noise in my head from the possibilities of hurts ahead and the doubts left from the hurts behind me.

I've found solace and smiles in new friends and old. I have Supportive family, even though they are far away. And although I'm not a master of change, this is a transition I can do with grace. 

I will not become hard or bitter. I will be soft and kind 

Blessings beloveds

Sooner than later

https://youtu.be/RzhAS_GnJIc

What a crazy few weeks. Trying to get my footing yet it seems to be a moving floor! Even the best of intentions seem tainted with self interest. This soft hearted hippie is hiding out in her home. Ya ya, I'm a cancer.

Some people never change and sometimes they change too much ha! 2 days, and I'm 35. I feel like it's been 2 days and i was 25 or even 15! 

I just need peace. A place of sovereignty, emotional safety. Where arms are there to hold and heal not use or hurt. A place of solace. Peace. 

Blessings beloveds 

4th!

https://youtu.be/xOEzCxAH1ys

Fireworks always make me reminiscent. As a girl I always wanted to spend the night under fireworks being held and kissed and romanced. Dancing, laughing the whole deal.

One year my bestie and I spent the 4th on Colorado. We watched the fireworks with strangers and enjoyed the company of friendship.

Tonight, through location changes, lightning, and rain galore I got the privilege of sharing the 4th with her again. This time with most of our kids:) what a blessing she has been these 19 years! 

I've fallen in love with my fierce lady friendships. For, sadly, romance seems to come and go. 

Reminiscing, I'm good at that :) it's hard sometimes to unbraid the feelings that one with that. What is real, what is residual and what is forever.

One thing I know. Real love comes in many forms. And boy am I blessed to have so much love in my life!

Blessings beloveds 

The past

https://youtu.be/cXWbMu4PtpE

What a week. Filled with root finding and grounding and reminiscing. Seems to be change is coming; all the shifting leaves one tired.

As some things from the past are being mended some things from the present are also changing rapidly. 

Kids are growing and keeping me filled with love and joy. They really are full of magic. 

I'm glad I'm finding peace with my past. Really too many years passed. Wish there were a few pieces out there I could still mend. Sadly, that may not be possible. But I can hope.

Namaste beloveds. May you be blessed.