"You've been with older men? Then you know that they'll hurt you and then They'll discard you."..:. House of Cards
Well well this Hit home. You see, I once
Knew an older man, destroyed me when he discarded me. However, so have others my age and even slightly younger.
You see, I don't think it is the age; rather the intent. Is it to pursue something real and containing longevity? Or simply a fling separate from affection. Or lastly, did somewhere they get lost and their focus landed strictly upon themselves
I'm constantly battling my soft hippie heart , but now it doesn't know up from down. What's real what's not. Praying and talking with Orion regarding the intense damage one last blow might do to the leftover pieces of my heart.
Offering my purest kindness and truest version of me, risking being broken quite possibly the last time.
Oh restless heart. Breathe in peace lovely Fae. This change in tides is scary and horrible but in someways stunning and beautiful.
Trembling hands and a quaking voice. Tears over kind deeds; tears over losses never to be remedied.
One more closing door may be the last. Please don't let me be broken yet again. Keep me safe as I heal, ward off the pain. My life is teetering, held together like a house of cards.
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