Being a mother is a challenge, a blessed one. Constant needs and pulling. And questions; followed by loves and hugs and kisses. :)
RR life is different. I'm mostly here alone. That's ok. It gets tiring or lonely and sometimes I get a bit fed up.
No real time for "me", friendships, or least of all romance. It is go go go the time. Not to mention I have blocked myself off from many due to hurts and healing.
Sometimes I feel like I'm going to collapse. From lack of emotional nourishment. I remember feeling this way in my teens too (hence today's musical pick). Just a feeling of impending crisis; that all will fall apart someday. That someone will see my flaws as I do and destroy me.
I'm taking little leaps of faith: friendships, running, trying to trust again. All I can say is I am so grateful for little hands, hugs and kisses:)
When things are falling apart, beloveds, what keeps you going??
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