The one? The one for now. I heard someone answer this way once. I never want to be the one for now. Doomed to s temporary existence in someone's life...that is not for me. I want a lifetime, maybe in different roles, but not a "just for now."
I don't love that way. Little bits of my heart given away through the journey, oft filled with little parts given in return. Sometimes not, so left with a hole.
Disappearing crushes my soul. I search for signs of life; futile really. I am fully aware I'm a rare fae creature. I can bow in submission and know the intention of the reciprocal is love and protection. I can shower the broken with love: but can be duped by the vampires drawn by the flame of my vibrations.
I have gambled and lost yet soul filled desires for always shake my soul awake to yearn, to search for the people, my people. The lovers, the givers, the empaths, the stayers.
Pain riddles my soul when I see my loves in pain: I want to heal them, bring forward the vitality I once felt pulse from them, now dampened by life and choices.
Oh naked heart, reaching treacherously to find home. Risk your love; i am worth it.
Namaste
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