The sacrifices we make.....

Throughout the years we all make choices. These choices have consequences, good or bad.  Sometimes we make decisions we know are right, some wrong, and some a confusing combination.

A lot of times we must choose logic over emotion or vice versa. On occasion we will break our own hearts to either do what is right, or to maintain some ghost of something we crave. 

Earlier I stated I was "putting down the gloves". First, this goes against every fiber of my being. Today I was asked to honor that statement in order to better the life of someone I care about. This request began a fervent battle in my soul. Be selfish and fight, or be selfless and honor the request. 

Because of my loving nature I choose to honor this request. I watched as my tears streamed down my face and the person who made this request seemed to fight the sadness in their own eyes. 

At this point I will have to add this heartache to my mosaic. I will fight the urge to lessen my heartache and rather basque in the glow of their progress without me in the way. 

Easier said than done. This I know. It is either this or bring on more suffering to myself, and others and I cannot do that to those I care for.

I will find peace. For I know I've done the right thing for all involved. Now for deep breaths, rest and sunshine!