As we age we all metamorphosize! But something's stay on us. Love for a sport, music, art, even the buzz of a tattoo gun.
I know part of my soul is and has always been the seeker of the broken. Craving to help ease the pain I could not just see but truly feel with them! I think I almost ingested their pain and made it mine.
Maybe that's why at 33 and confronted with my pain(and others) I literally ooze the pain of mine and that I have adopted from those I care about.
I can see their pain flash in my mind, eyes of brindled blue, steel grey, blue as a pool of water, chocolate brown, green as an emerald and golden and copper like. All holding pain, all holding a special place in my heart that desperately wanted to heal them; bring them peace, happiness and relief.
Most of these people are merely a short conversation away on fb and some are so far gone; where are they now?!
Today I'm not only cleansing pain and building a new piece of art on my body but I'm reflecting on those I care for, even the ones who are lost to me.
Where are you beloveds? Soaring? Sinking? Maintaining? I hope you are searching and finding you; the you that you can deep down be proud of and see in you what I see/saw.
Today I memorialize my children, all of them! Angels and all! What are you craving to share? To create? To remember?
Maybe today, you can just remember me:) vain I know, but we all have a touch of vanity. Indulge me beloveds: maybe even tell me our favorite memory or thought of me, I will gladly play along and return the favor!
Haha just for fun!
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