That word is so simple, yet complicated beyond imagination. I beg for it to those I have hurt and to the universe for those who I've hurt and they may not even realize.
I fight to forgive those in my world that have hurt me deeply. Some of these betrayals were overt, others im just left with the forboding that I really didn't know someone at all and that a large part of their existence was a facade.
So much of my is a facade. Happy, together, and stoic. When inside im floundering, weak and searching for the motivation around me. To know. Do "you" even truly care? Is your love true?? Are your words honest. Was i anything to you.
I want to hide my heart away so it cannot be broken anymore. So my mosaic can heal and I can feel whole. So I don't miss you, them or me.
So I can look back and feel peace in my decisions and know I was and am loved.
That not only do i see your beauty but that you see/saw mine?
That when the door opens and you are there, I can let you in, not shut you out to prevent my pain. Or maybe yours.
Beloveds, do you need forgiveness? Do you need to give it?? Am I alone here??
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