I miss you ....Jenn

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I want to live. Really live. No longer mourn or worry or feel neglected, rejected or chosen over.

I want to wear crazy socks and have those close to me know why! I want to listen to the same song a quadrillion times until my soul stops aching. 

I want to do yoga on the deck at the ranch and hear the birds and smell the sweet air and feel the breeze cleanse my body and soul.

I want to drown in joy, in desire and in hope. I want those to rember me fondly and to forget the ugly parts. 

I want to rejoice in old friends finding themselves and soak in the sun with my hands in the dirt and my children's laughter around me.

I want to be freed from the shackles of rape, abuse, self loathing, fear and mistakes. 

I want to dance in the rain and laugh the whole time, kiss under orion and forget what a broken heart feels like. 

I want to hug my parents and show them how blessed I am by them and my sister too.

I want to have sleepovers and wine parties with my soul sisters strung all over the country. 

I miss .......me.....Jenn; the person. 

I'm going to get lost, I'm going to get lost in finding her, and her bliss!!

Reach today beloveds, for your bliss! For me! Show me we all want joy! 

❤️