Every step I take I have an "idea" of how things will work out. Seems that at every turn recently I've been wrong.
Too many times the rug has been pulled out from beneath me. Found things I was against finding and then couldn't set them free. Instead they just became part of me living somewhere in the universe.
It is funny, it's been almost 20 years since I have been on my "adult" journey and I'm just now finding out why some things are happening. I'm allowing them, my expectations alone doom me. You see, I hold myself to almost ridiculously high standards. I then expect those around me to love like I do, with all of them. I expect loyalty and forgiveness. I'm no better than anyone else but these are things I value deeply and expect. But, not everyone shares my standards or my commitment to these attributes.
So, 15ish years later...same old song and dance. But I'm ok with that. The lessons I've learned and those I've loved have all been worth it.
Beloveds, what lessons are you learning over and over??? Are you stuck or finally getting it?!
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