As I'm finding my peace and my little one is too I'm finding some lessons harder than others.
Sometimes goodbye is really that, not a see you later; rather a goodbye unless we cross paths or our worlds crumble into eachother if even then.
Healing a broken heart is such a very slow process. Not to mention that some souls like mine hold that pain close as a reminder. Usually requiring major circumstances to let that pain seep out and blow away freely.
I know some can just turn and walk and vanish into the horizon. I don't know how they do that! In some ways I envy them. As I reach and reach and reach for things that aren't there.
Finding contentment and joy in the storm is a struggle right now; but I am doing it. I watch as my biggest support(s) struggle through a battle with cancer. Smiling and truly joyful; not falsely but honestly! I want to be like that.
Not just quietly stoic, having to cleanse the pain for it to disappear. Losing faith with every day that joy is a struggle.
Motherhood is my blessing. It brings unadulterated joy, peace and the knowledge that growth is possible.
Oh to see the world like a child. No my jaded, not fearful, just excited to see what each second holds. I want to be more like that:)
My faith in love is floundering. I know it's out there; I know it is real. Beloveds, is your faith floundering??
Faith and love are what keep us going in life. There are times that both seem so far away.....or non-existent. But once we have them in our soul they remain. Perhaps only a little tiny piece locked safely away for when we come back and realize how much we need them. But they are still there. I cannot count the number of times I've questioned both in my life. And probably will continue to do so. But I know that ultimately life is about love. And that is what makes life worth living.
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