Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Numb



The last year has been a whirlwind of trials and pain with smatterings of unmatched beauty. I am frequently told this is "just a season." Boy, it is feeling like a long one. 

There has been unrefutable pain, shining glitters of hope, a constant trickle of joy, and so many questions.

Why is this happening? Is love attainable and real?  Is anyone who they present themselves as? Is this a moot issue and are we fighting for something long gone? Where are those I care for? Do i matter?

After so much of a tornado of life i am left a bit shell shocked and numb. Where am I in all this rubble??

Foolish for believing people will keep promises, miss me, truly feel passion for me, just as I am.?! Searching daily for that connection that I miss to my bones.

Wondering how long you survive. with something that is unable to be revived; with the hopes it can be.

Floundering a bit today beloveds. Feeling weak. Do you have quandaries like these?!

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